April 24, 2011: my 'ah ha' moment

I rededicated my life to The Lord, today.  Even though, before I left, this Easter Sunday morning, I said to myself....when they call people to the alter, DON'T stand up.  And, I didn't. (At first.)  When Pastor said, "on the count of three.  One...two...THREE!" 

I stood my ground, as tears flowed down both of my cheeks.  I clapped for those who were brave enough to stand up.  Pastor continued, "the voice you hear inside your heart is the Holy Spirit; don't let the devil talk you out of it.  Hell is full of people who thought they would have another opportunity."

My friend hears me sob.  She whispers, "I'll go with you, if you want me to."

Pastor continued...everything he had said that morning was FOR ME.  The doubt and confusion I had felt, in days and weeks prior, had vanished.  "Jesus did not come to condemn the world.  He came to bring us conviction.". It was my 'ah ha' moment.  I get it.  What was once cloudy, now was clear.

The Holy Spirit took my breath away as Pastor continued to call people forward.  "but I'm already saved," I thought to myself.  Then why am I SOBBING?  Why was I out of breath?  Because I needed to let go.  I needed to let Him take over. 

So, I stood up.